If you want to hear some weird music…

Listen to The Residents – Swastikas on Parade. It’s a very creepy track that I can’t listen for too long because the music just sounds…evil…

Night drives

Quite possibly one of my favorite things to do during the summer is to go for a late-night drive with the windows down and just drive and drive. It’s very relaxing and I don’t do it often (especially these days), but I should probably go for one once my summer class is finished. I need to find a place to just sit and watch the sun rise.

Just drink coffee, sit with the radio on, but it doesn’t matter which station because it’s all just noise to ignore any way. The real purpose would be to get away from the world for a while–no troubles, no worries–just feeling life and being glad to be alive.

You see, I’m a cynic, but I do have this side of me that’s not all criticism and angst. I do find some beauty in the world.

Blessed are those that know when to STFU..

If you go to a mall these days chances are you’ll see some self-important douchie with a Blu-tooth headset. Wait..you wouldn’t notice that first: the first thing you’d notice is someone that resembles those crazy types you see portrayed in NYC. You know the type that talks to themselves? Yeah, that’s what you’d see first. Then you’d see the ear-piece and realize what the hell’s going on.

Now, is this really a necessary piece of technology? I don’t think it is. And I don’t think it is because I really don’t need to hear half of your conversation. I also don’t think this is necessary because it’s a bit pretentious to think that you’re that important to society. Hey, do you really think that the world will need you to save it so you need to be right there when they call?

Here’s my proposal: You lay down the needless accessory and I won’t mock you in public. Not that you care. You’re too busy on the damn phone to really care about much of anything. Which is probably good because people like you eventually walk out into the path of an oncoming bus. And that’s just natural selection right there. That or your own stupidity. Probably both.

The Cure

Here I am listening to ‘Lullaby’ right now and admiring how…atmospheric this song is late at night. They really got the mood right when they wrote this.

A future

There was a time in my past when I had no future–or maybe there was one, but I wasn’t aware of it. I was so stupid my 9th grade year of high school; I cut class way more than I should have. And I betrayed my father and I betrayed myself. I failed that year because I had no ambition and no goals. I wasn’t too sure exactly what I wanted to do with myself (other than do nothing).

I went to truancy court for missing so many days and they pretty much told me that I either go to class or my parents go to jail (nice, ‘eh?). And I had to strictly sign in to class. Well, after about 4 months of that I got sick of it. Finally the next year came and I had to repeat the 9th grade, but it was probably the best thing that could have happened to me.

The next year I was given a shop class that was kind of fun. And since I had really improved myself so I was recommended for our graphic communication class. It was a trivial act at the time, but it was a great moment and the beginning of what I’m doing now. I look back at it and the trivial event of being introduced to this teacher that seemed kind of…out there at first was who helped shape my future . I’m planning to become a publication designer and I don’t know if I’ll succeed, or even if I’m all that good. I’m getting there. This one event led me to where I am today and I’m thankful for everything that has happened since.

I had a moment like this the last day of classes this semester as I was leaving the campus I had a feeling of euphoria and for once I felt truly content with myself and who I am. I’ve never really felt that way until that day. Maybe it was the last day of class being so surreal to me. Or maybe it was the fact that I felt different. I felt like things were truly changing for me and for the better.